Hard and Easy Times

Every second pass by, I always feel disrupted.
Will my road be straight? Or there is more road that gives me choices. There is a blockade or narrowed in my road that i have to overcome, never thought it would be so tough when your all grown up...

Sometimes, I just want to give up. Though i may feel lost, bewildered, and alone. But there is a little voice inside of me, telling me that i should cheer up. 'Continuing to believe in yourself will not allow discouragement and doubt to blur your visions and wash away your dreams'.

I guess life ought to have though times huh~
But eventually hard times will bring you
Happy times...
It just depends on how you look at it.

Things tend to happen for a reason,
Which is hard to see at first time.
You won't see it unless you go seek,
Sometimes it takes time to see it,

But most of time all it takes patience.
Be patient, and tough times will pass.

Rainbows are hard to be seen,
But it will reveal itself and that we should
embrace it. Unless it storm recently.
I have hopes that my life will be sunny.

I have to work hard and take many productive steps in a positive direction that i am bound to succeed. Whatever the hurt of the moment may be, it will pass. Tomorrow is always a new dawn. Today should pause, rest, take a deep breath and then look ahead. I had heard people said that 'Each step you achieve will bring you closer to your dreams'. My rainbows are always there waiting. Happiness is just the next turn.

I'm not being emotions and all...haha~

Other than that, I updated! :D

Happy?

SMK GREEN ROAD FORM 5A [2009]

GOODBYE

GOODBYE

MY AGES AND LOOKS

Lol the past and the present haha :D

Just born: Ok i wasnt sure what is that tube thing doing on my big head o.O"?
Age 1: My first traveling to Singapore... ahoy! :D
Age 2: hmmm... i dont know where's that lols~
Age 3: I dont know wheres that too... (Amnesia :P)
Age 4-6: The age of naughtiness >:D
Age 7-11: hmmmm grew weight..... and on the beach wet o.o
Age 12-13: obese! hahahaha! wtf~
Age 14: yea! teenager.... very active... and stressful lols
Age 15: hmmm.... getting lazy and sleepy... lols~ ( miss my long hair :( )
Age 16: My first spectacles
NOW: well.... you know lah... haha :D

MAFIAS

I STILL CAN

Nervous heartbeat pounding through my chest,

Brain going hay-wire, not performing at its best,

Disfunctional personality, screwed up in my head,

Try to breathe normally, gasping for air instead,

A million things running through my mind,

Step back and try to pretend,

Hoping that won't happen again,

I refuse to believe,

You play the perfect part, it's a part meant to deceive...

will everything be normal again?

WEIRD WEEK

Thats me... lying down... *sick-bird*"

When i got home from spring last saturday eating at desserts with friends and its super damn cold inside the spring. Then i got home, it was raining.... so i go and turn on my computer... BANG! O_O"??? ... yup... spoiled... wth.... So i go up use the other computer and BANG too! WTH!?? Even my house phone is not even working, so cant even use the internet ==" My computer have to send to KL to repair~~~
So i spend one whole night in my room or walking around the house for no reason...

Then the next morning.... i got sick... really really bad... I cant even move my entire body i got headache, flu, cough, sore throat, and fever... This is definitely like swine flu symptoms. So i slept in my room for 24 hours straight.... i never even sleep like that before when i was a kid and i still got exam that week and i didn't even study... all because of this sickness i have... makes me weak but i still have to force my self to go to school... haiz~ and i even infected my dad in the car cause i was coughing... so after he sent me home.... 2 hours later... came back with a gas mask and looking ill.. o.o" lol... my house is beeing quarantined...

:D

WAAAAA!!!!??? OMG!!!!!!

HIS ONLY 5 YEARS OLD!!?!?!???

Not again...

For the last 2 weeks... I had gone through depression... now all of a sudden, its back.

How am i going to manage this? how am i going to live with this feeling??

When someones is in a really bad mood or depress... it will take days, weeks or months to recover what you've gone through.

So yea, im in a process of erasing everything that i have been holding on to it... because keeping it will only let it grow.

And i really really feel sorry for this... maybe it is not time for me.... maybe is a mistake.... or maybe is not meant for me.

SCHOOL MADNESS?

Ok... I was high in school... hahaha!


Just because my exams is coming next week for 11 days...so... i don't know if i can survive like this... Stress stress stress~ > <"

So i was too stressed in school and depressed....
so after recess... me and my friend decided to give a happy look with this exams schedule....hahaha, while my other friends are bothering disturbing my other friend with this girl... Lmao~~~ c'mon lah... just because his two front teeth is showing out of his mouth like a rabbit... lol~

Anyway's... i need to study really hard this year.

and good luck to you all... jia you! :D

Boy and Girl story

Shattered

Maybe one of you know already....

Dance

This dance is cool, and the song too. Oh yea, im having this dance competition for my school to compete with other schools. Gonna compete Brian and his team :D hehe~
Its on 6 of June at kenyalang theater... See who win lo~ :D

DEPRESS

..::DEPRESS::..

Im in... Great depression right now.

Every night... Im always in my room, with the lights off... thinking... and thinking...

I get a funny feeling,
it comes from deep inside.
I get all mad and angry,
wanting to go and hide.

Some say I'm psycho,
some say I'm just weird.
It's like I'm a different person,
and the old me just disappeared.

I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
(not really, so don't worry)
Then I get a headache,
followed by feeling sad.

I wish I could get help,
I wish it would go away.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
it will some day.

Im just sick and tired... and some others things....

THE SIX-TEENS

lol... drama? :P

FIREPROOF

This is the most inspired and touching movie ive ever seen... i mean seriously. You should watch it.

I was watching this on sunday night cuz its the good time to watch it.

This movie is about a man (Caleb Holt) trying to win his wife's heart back in time of divorce.

When his wife rejected him, his father explains that this is the love Christ shows to us, Caleb makes a life-changing commitment to love God. Andówith God's helpóhe begins to understand what it means to truly love his wife.



Never Leave Your Partner Behind

SAVE MIGUEL

Wth? When i was bored in midnight i decided to do something. I googled my name and it come out this http://www.savemiguel.com/

WOW!? I have a campaign! :D WITH VIDEO!!! XD XD




And i just found out that my name Miguel is the most second popular name... LMAO!?

THE NEW IDENTITY

..::The New Identity::..

Ok, at first i wasn't planing on getting a haircut, but i was like... whatever...YO! GET THE SCISSORS AND GET IT OVER WITH!

Then the very next day.... i was a bit nervous, you know... getting a new haircut, looks and identity... cuz it was school day... so yes! This is how the story goes... Next day i woke up, looked at the mirror with a clean haircut. Bath, get uniform, wear uniform, get books, dump em in bag, etc etc etc, FAST FORWARD!>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Oh wait! REWIND!

When i went downstairs i was like, Oh wait! i forgot to put some wax on... but in a second, wth~ my hair is short lol~ and i still have that FHF habit (Front Hair Fixing) lol~ lame~

Do you know when you arrive to school they always have this 10 or more prefects standing on the gate like im some kind of VIP.... But nooo~ you think wrong, they will always do some check ups on you, like your nails, shoes, school logo, name tag, tie, tuck in your shirt and etc. So then i just waltz in like im some
kind of boss and they were like.... :O omg~ who's he? ==" they didn't even do some check ups on me. :D

Now, the last step.... ~THE CLASS~ Ok.... i went for a pitstop in the toilet just to calm down. Then when i reach the classroom.... usually it always have this WHOA!!??? OMG DUDE!!!??? WHAT HAPPEN!!?? But, mine is like.... WOOOOOO HOOOOOOO!!!! :O AAAAAH!!!! What is this!??? Some cheering squad? o.O"? And some of my friend were like respect me for having this kind of cut, some even didn't even recognize me... haha! Like my math and geo teacher. But my geo teacher just come to my desk and smile at me... i was like... you got a problem~

lol~ well that's that.... im gonna sleep now :D

CHANGING HAIRSTYLE

Faux Haircut

..::CHANGING HAIRSTYLE::..

I was thinking about getting myself a different haircut... cuz everytime i wake up in the mornin, i have to fix my hair always~ putting a lot of wax to make my hair and making my front hair go sideways. You wanna know why, i got fed up in it... that's my im going to cut my hair short. So i was looking for some short haircuts just to show my mom, so she can trim my hair. But, im having a little problem... that's why i post some pictures here just to show which is best. SO GO! Tell me which???? Il maybe give ya a prize lol~

The first left is Nakata Hidetoshi's hair cut.

The second is one of Beckham's faux haircut.

The last is... i dunno who the heck is that.... just seeing what il look like with the specs lol :D

21122012

OMG OMG OMG!!??? I can't believe or what im seeing and hearing right now!

Oh... about this number on top (21122012) is not some kind of numbers, is a warning. They say in the mayan age that one of the people predicted that there's gonna be a major natural disasters, knows as... Worlds End / Doomsday :O . Its one of the mayan calender. Even the oracle in China before predicted this, Internet based prophetic software program predicted too. That why we see a lot of signs happening on earth


I google it about this numbers in my game Assassins Creed, cool game :P... and its based with religious and beliefs. Then i saw the numbers in the game. Its a date, 21st December 2012. That is the date thats going to happen. I know! ITS FREAKIN SCARY!!! D:

600,000 years ago, man oredy exist.... But in 3000 years ago, it happen. Giant tsunami's, earthquakes, volcanic eruptions and other kinds of disasters. Don't believe? try google it... but for me... i say is a mystery. So yea, right now is 2009... 3 years left... whats going to happen in 21/12/2012? Its frightening and its scary. That's why right now u see a lot of movies full of disasters like *The Knowing*.

But don't worry... it maybe be another age end. BUT STILL! IM GOING PRAY THAT THIS IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN! It really scares me a lot... i mean.. 2012?? wth? Im just about to graduate college in that year D:

NOKIA MORPH

..::NOKIA MORPH::..
The nanotechnology concept phone

Omg... this is the most coolest thing i ever seen :O. The future of all phone.

This phone is soo flexible, stretchable, transparent, remarkably strong and it can shape shape and design. For example... like taking pictures of a purple hat. Then it will be a purple bracelet stars... lol :D so its also a wearable device.
And its also self-cleaning. This phone you can just throw it in the hot freakin boiling pool or in the dirty mud... if i have this phone i can just throw anywhere i wanted to :D
It can even charge under the sun... its solar power man (lol...talk like koopman) Its an advance power source. It charges super quick and long lasting. It also can sense the environment. It have some kinda nanosensors in it, so it can analyze the environment like temperature and humidity... or maybe it can detect Susan when she's coming. So i can make a quick run for it :P. it can even enhance our health. Too bad im not getting this in my lifetime... i born to early :P

MOUNTAIN HIKE

At first i wasn't really in the mood going on the hiking trip.... but my parents force me too. so, i was like.... ok whatever... but first im hungry :P

Hundreds of people on hiking :O

lol....what am i looking at? :P

Taking a pit stop....holding some kind of heavy tile... aaaaallll the waaaaayyy up~ D:

wow... my dad is really taking the pace... im lost D:

Lol... look up there... it says Bau. A place that smells. :D
Guess where i am :D.... (im actually one of the photographers :P)

really tiring.... but sure is a great experience. Walking for an hour and a half. wooooo~ X_x

CREEPY AND COOL [C&C]

Looks cool :D~

I know what you are thinking... just say it out on my chat box :P

ENDURES

WHY AM I HAVING THIS FEELING?

GAH!! WHY SUDDENLY I FEEL SO EMO NOWADAYS!? DX

Since two weeks of loneliness, lack of sleep and trap inside my house with a dead phone (no msg)

Am i being myself again? Or am i going back to my old life again where i always have this numb look and being left out.... or is it just me.... i been killing this feeling since i stop blogging....well maybe i have to pour it out here.

And yes... Holidays sucks~

IM PUSHING! :D

There ya go.... pushed down already~

hmmmm.... what am i gonna say? o.O"?

Morning....



















7:00am = wake up (gloomy day)















7:30am= sleep again~ z.z













8:30am= Watch cartoons :P lol~

8:50am= bath and breakfast (fried egg with rice ==")

9:00am= went to the office with my parents















9:10am= escort my mom to the market e.e




















10:10am= Play badminton

11:45am= drive to my friends house

12:10pm= Parents let me drive home :O

12:30pm= update my blog

1:00pm= Finish!

Im gonna go eat! :D

SPY CAM =D

Lets just say... *All of the sudden* :O... im been bullied T.T... lol XD

LOL

Haha! I always watch this show before ;P

THE SEARCH IS OVER

OMG! OMG! OMG! This is the one i been looking for a long time!.... T-Shirt Designs :D Yay! Found it at spring.... But noooooooooooo to the price!! T_T....... u know how much this book cost? And look at the size of it.... is the size as my hand.... And it cost... RM80+ and there's another book that cost even more... RM160+!!! >.< So i was begging to my parents like a child to buy me this book, then suddenly i was thinking about the fee for traveling this year. So i was like forget it, keep that money...i wanna go traveling! :D


But i manage to take some photo's in it hahaha! Smart eh!? >=D shhhhh~..... i was like looking at the back, left, and right checking if there's no one is seeing me taking photos in the book shop.... is restricted you know.... but lucky i din get caught by the sale's assistant haha! :D

BOREDOM

hmmm.... nothing to blog out.... soooo bored lah... just make videos everyday~ cant wait go to the library! :D

INTERNET BLACKOUT

Can you live without the internet in your house?

Because..... I CAN'T !!!

STUDY DAY

(sings) Saturday morning rain is not falling~ :D.... Finally man! The rain madness has stop.... now all my clothes can be dried under the sun :D YAY!.. No more wearing wet clothes!

I woke at 6.00AM in the morning... and i feel a bit woozy and pain in my throat...pssst~ i lost my voice singing guardian angel with Brian, Kelvin, Ryan, and the others last night hahaha! Were like howling for the moon :D. I went to the State Library at Petra Jaya to do my revisions with my friends... some how we got bored on the week days.... so planing to do a study group every weekend hahaha!

Ahh~ nothing than a place that is more quiet and peaceful...Its like in heaven filled with books. Well... that's me... wired with an earphone and trying to think in and out from the box haha :D. Doing my homework and studying my Science, Math (:D) , Economics (==") , and accounting for 4 hours X_X.... its not really 4 hours... i think it was less then 3 hours... its freaking cold inside.... then suddenly went to sleep for 10 mins hahaha!


So then, i went out get my bag and head out the building waiting for the driver to come... and suddenly.... i saw a van....a dark blue colour... and the van is the same as Ely's one.... so in my mind i was like, Hey? Looks like Ely's car... oh well hahaha... then i was talking to my friends and all of the sudden... i saw a lady that looks very familiar.... then i turn my eyes with the two girls that looks VERY familiar... and YES!... the person at the back of them... its Ely! hahaha! :D ( I wonder what were you doing there :D) Then stop to say hi and she said that Josh is in the library too....wow? ok? what a surprise! Then Josh came out to see me... and he was like shhhhh~ hahaha...P.S. were outside the library dude... so no need to shhh~ shhh~ here. XD

So yeah... now my head is full of information that i needed :D YAY!

SHIRT DESIGN

This is the shirt that i designed for the concert, its a urban grunge type shirt.
message me in my cbox (Crazy Box) to tell me how is it so i can make a few changes or create another one before show it to the others. :D